Things are getting pretty cray!

So. It's been quite a while since I've posted..and I'm sorry! But my stupid ex/baby daddy decided to turn off our cable/internet without any notice at all! My roommate and I are still pretty livid about it, but it's whatever. We should be getting internet back within the next couple weeks! (Yay!!!)

 

 

Anyway! I'm linking up with Lisa and Rachael for this weeks Weekly Wrap Up! But it's gonna be more like a "Okay, this is what's been going on in the past month!" Just because I can. Haha.

 

 

Everything is going great with baby Preston. At the last ultrasound on the 12th, he was measuring about a week; week and a half ahead, and a rough weight of 4 pounds 12 ounces! Let's hope he decides to come on out to the world at the end of April.

 

 

Look at how cute he is! I also decided to splurge a little bit on him, since I've been refraining, but I was finally like, oh my god he will be here so soon, and I have like nothing for him yet! I ended up going to Ross, and spent a pretty penny, but I got so much! 9 different outfits, that come with 3 pieces, a baby blanket, and a set of bibs, all for like $85, which wasn't bad considering a couple of the outfits were originally from the Disney store!

 

 

Update with the boy: Things are going pretty great. He's still being super sweet, caring, and the best. Constantly compliments me, we're always on each other's minds, AND he wants to be there when I have Preston! When he told me that I was so excited! But as far as dating goes...we're just gonna have to play it by ear. He's worried that the baby daddy will get in the way, which is completely understandable, so I'm not pushing it. He also gave me this really cute owl necklace!

 

 

Not much else has really been going on. Just mainly working and sleeping, and the occasional hating my ex. I've seriously only heard from him once within the past month. And that seriously is not cool. The closer it gets to Preston getting here, the more I'm beginning to seriously think he wants absolutely nothing to do with us. He already practically moved out, never comes by, never calls/texts to ask how we're doing, and back right after I broke up with him, he told me he'd like to be there when I deliver. I honestly don't want him at the hospital at all. I don't care if that makes me sound like a bad person, but when someone doesn't show any support or anything like that, and just causes me an extreme amount of stress, why would I want them there when I'm in labor? If he wants to be there, fine. But he can sit his ass in the waiting room, while the people who have supported me the entire time, is in the room with me while I'm in labor, because I'm gonna need a complete stress-free zone!

 

Well, that's all for now! I'll try to be around more soon. I miss reading everyone's blogs!

 

Until next time,

 

--Lola

 



When you think things can't get any better...

I'm sure most of you know by now, that I'm expecting a baby boy in May, and I couldn't be any more excited about him; you may have also read in a previous post that I absolutely can not stand his father. 

Now, in my opinion, I think that if a father wants to be included in a child's life after the child is born, he should take the time to actually care about said child when he is developing in the womb. Actually ask how the baby is, how he's growing, if there's been any complications, attend doctors visits/sonograms, etcetera. But according to him, he still cares about his child, but he doesn't know how to actually ask me about him, which if you ask me, is complete bullshit. 

I'm not going to lie. I honestly think I made the biggest mistake ever dating him. I, however, do not regret Preston one bit. A child is a 100% miracle. And I would never say they are a mistake. 

I've been through a lot in the past 10 months. I moved towns, changed jobs, moved in with someone way too fast, got pregnant, and got severely hurt, mentally and emotionally. But with all that has happened, all I can really do is try to move forward, keep my head up, and know that I am a strong woman, with a good head on my shoulders. 

They say that the people that have been hurt the most, are some of the strongest people in the world, and I finally have come to agree with that. It has taken me almost 23 years, but I finally agree, and I think I have finally found someone who is worth my time and effort, and I'm taking things slowly, not wanting to do anything completely stupid. 

It truly does take a million mistakes in the wrong direction to finally stumble and fall in the right direction into something amazing. I seriously can't wait to see how things go. 

--Lola

(Sorry if this is kinda ramblely. It's been a rough day...)

Baby father - rant

I don't think I've EVER wanted to hate someone as much as I want to hate my baby's father. Ever since I broke up with him, he still hasn't really shown me any respect, maturity, or that he has gotten his priorities straight.

Listen here buddy, since that day I found out I was pregnant, not just my life changed, but so did yours. FOREVER. I don't know what the hell it's going to take for you to get that through your non-existent brain of yours, but you better step up soon, or I'll find someone else who will. Even though I really don't need anyone else, and I could do everything on my own, I'd rather not. 

You never ask how I am, how your baby is, when my next doctors appointment is, how my doctors appointments go, etc. The fact that we aren't together anymore is beside the point. We still live together, and this is your first born child. Keep your shit up and you won't have a part in his life. That's the last thing I want to do, but if it comes down to it, a mother has to do, what a mother has to do to protect children first and then herself. 

You have to realize that this baby will require love, support, and money. Yes, that one thing that everyone can not get enough of. Speaking of money, you'd rather spend your tax return on a new car instead of saving it for your son. You have a perfectly good car, you just don't know how to take care of it correctly. He's going to be here in basically 3 months. Please for his sake, get your fucking priorities in line before it's too late. 

I know it's been a hot minute since I've posted something, but I really haven't had much to say. Hope everyone is doing fabulous!

Until next time,

--Lola

Update!

Well, well, well. Look who's finally deciding to show a little bit?

That's right! This girl right here. My little boy is as big as an ear of corn as of today!

I'm officially 23 weeks pregnant. And feeling this little miracle move more and more every day!

 

 

 

It's been one hell of a trip so far, but it's gonna be so worth it all in the end.

 

I know it's not much of a post, but decided to update my followers a little about how baby boy is growing like a weed!

 

 

Until next time-

Lola

2013 in a nutshell.

2013 was a rollercoaster of a year for me. As the year has slowly came to an end, I'm finally getting to the next amazing crest of an airtime hill that I hope never ends.

 

As the year began, I was just a girl slaving away trying to earn a living off what people decided to leave me based on how well of a job I did "entertaining" them. Aka; Server life. That went on for a few good months, until I came across this guy that ended up changing my life forever, whether I want to admit it to myself or not. I may not be happy with the choices and decisions he's made since I broke up with him, but for the rest of my life, part of him will always be with me. But I'll get more into that shortly.

 

We didn't have that long of a run; but for the most part, until he did some things that I'd rather not get in to, it was a happy relationship. Then things just started going downhill, and before it completely ruined me, I decided it would be best to just go ahead and end the entire thing.

 

We're still currently living together, but just as roommates, and yes, it is awkward, but it's the only thing I can do right now.

 

 

But as I was saying earlier...how part of him will always be with me....

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Yes, that's right! I'm having a baby. A baby boy to be exact. And I couldn't be more happier. I can't wait to meet my little man Preston Blake Mitchell in May 2014!

 

 

 

 

 

But I'm super glad to be putting 2013 in the books, wrapping it up, and hopefully never looking back at all the low valleys I hit.

 

2014 will be a better year. I'll make sure of it. I'll have my little bundle of joy to make it all better; I've got my best friends by my side no matter what, and my family is my rock. I refuse to let things get as bad as they did this year.

 

 

 

Until next time-

 

Lola